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How Long Has It Been?

Posted by iCanDream, 02 June 2014 · 161 views

How Long Has It Been?
  • Make it go away!!!

Acne... 
There is nothing good I can say about it.  I hate it, I abhor it, I wish it never existed.
But, who here on this site doesn't feel the same?  I'm pretty sure there isn't a single person registered here who worships it.  If I find a blog about how amazing acne is, I'll make sure I comment, "haha, very funny. troll."

For those of you who do not know, my name is Teresa, and I struggle with acne.  I've had pretty painful acne since I was
13 years old.  I am now 20 years old.  Do the math, that's 7 years.  There hasn't been a single day since my first zit that I have 
ever been pimple free.  I practically grew up with acne.

My acne has always bothered me.  Being the self-conscious person I am, I was never happy with any flaw I saw on my face, 
and acne was definitely the biggest.  Despite that, I have always been able to tolerate the pain of living with a few (many) inflamed 
bumps living on me... because acne is a normal thing to have.

However, I've been suffering through the worst breakout of my life for the last couple months (there may have been worse, and I just don't remember them)... and...

"I can't take it anymore!!"
 
I don't know what it is about this breakout (EXCEPT BEING THE WORST BREAKOUT EVER), but I think I've finally reached my breaking point (No pun intended).  My tolerance for acne (on my own face) has dropped down to 0,  or negative, if that's even possible.  I've become noticeably depressed, obsessed, and antisocial because of it.  I've honestly become hopeless.

I think what hit me hard was the fact that I'm entering my last year of college (University).  I've already let acne ruin my entire high school experience, and I'm about to let it have my last year of college.  Oh,  HEOOOO to the NAHH.
But...

What can I do about it?...

I've tried everything I have the power to try...
I went on Murad my sophomore year of high school...
I was prescribed tretinoin topical cream 2x.
I was prescribed Clindamycin Phosphate 2x.
I bought everything Neutrogrena.
I tried the generic version of ProActive (AcneFree for Severe Acne)
I bought everything Biore.
Bought some sketchy cream I don't even remember the name of anymore.
I tried the holistic approach:
-- Currently take 25000IU Vit A, 2000IU Vit D3, 400IU Vit E, and 50mg Zinc daily
I tried putting Tea Tree Oil all over my face (that's when the acne started getting REALLY bad.  I regret it).
I tried breaking up the Vit E capsules and putting it on my face...
I tried going vegan...
I tried exercising regularly...

I'M STILL A PIZZA FACE.
 
You know... I thought acne was something you're supposed to grow out of.  I've been waiting 7 years for that to happen...
And instead of getting better, it only gets worse.  I'm not going to wait any longer...

I want it to stop now.  I want to live.
 
I'm doing something I should have done years ago.  I went to my doctor and got a referral to a dermatologist.  I plan on asking for Accutane (or more correctly, Isotretinoin) on my first visit.  I'm a little worried though...

My doctor told me to wait for a call from the dermatologist, because, apparently, that's how referrals work.  It's been a week, and still no call.  Did he jip me?  Am I actually going to see a derm?  WHERE ARE YOU DERM??

Also, I'm afraid my dermatologist (if I actually ever get to see one) won't prescribe me isotretinoin.  I want it so badly, but I'm afraid he/she won't see my acne as severely as I see it.  It's ruined my life.  Actually, it's prevented me from ever having one.  People who "used to have clear skin" and got a sudden bad breakout don't understand what it's like to never have been able to enjoy life...

I want to be put on Isotretinoin A.S.A.P.  Today would be great (clearly not happening).  Within the next month, if possible, please?  I'm not interested in being put on one oral antibiotic after another.  I don't have the time to waste.  I want to be GUARANTEED a clear face for most of my senior year... and nothing but Isotretinoin will do it for me.

I desperately NEED to be acne free.  I want to meet boys, party, go out, be social.... all those things I'm too self-conscious to do.  All those things I feel I've been deprived of because of acne.

This wait is seriously driving me crazy.  If I have to live another year with acne...  Let's just say... I'm not going to let myself live another year with acne.

Anyway...

I've posted a picture of myself hiding my acne behind a webcam.  Also started an album to *show off* my beautiful acne ridden face.
To those of you who were actually curious enough to read to the end, do you think my acne is bad enough to get prescribed Accutane?
 
 
 




Hi hun, i am so with you on wanting acne gone.  I've had it since 15 and 15 years later, i am still here with it.  I have done all the things you've listed including 3 rounds of accutane and diet changes.  Accutane gave me complete clearance the first 2 times and i was acne free for 2 years but the third time was a bust.  I think a derm would prescribe accutane for you as your acne is a persistent sucker,  Do not do antibiotics (trust me).  While you're waiting for a derm appt, why not visit the diet things again.  Many people have gotten relief fro going dairy and gluten free or essentially doing paleo for 3 months.   I've tried it to no avail so i will be doing an elimination diet instead.  Good Luck and keep us posted.  I feel your pain.

Hi hun, i am so with you on wanting acne gone.  I've had it since 15 and 15 years later, i am still here with it.  I have done all the things you've listed including 3 rounds of accutane and diet changes.  Accutane gave me complete clearance the first 2 times and i was acne free for 2 years but the third time was a bust.  I think a derm would prescribe accutane for you as your acne is a persistent sucker,  Do not do antibiotics (trust me).  While you're waiting for a derm appt, why not visit the diet things again.  Many people have gotten relief fro going dairy and gluten free or essentially doing paleo for 3 months.   I've tried it to no avail so i will be doing an elimination diet instead.  Good Luck and keep us posted.  I feel your pain.

 

Thanks for your concern!  I haven't been on this site for very long, but I've already noticed that I'm surrounded by a lot of people just like me -- people who hate acne and want to be rid of it, people with low self-esteem because of it, people who just want a solution.  At this point right now, I just want to be free of acne for my senior year.  I know I'd probably relapse eventually -- but it can keep me clear JUST FOR SENIOR YEAR, right?  It's honestly why I'm having a hard time waiting... I know I'll have to wait a month before I can actually get on it (being female and all)... and the longer it takes the derm to call, the more likely I'm going to have acne into my senior year.  (I probably have to wait even more to actually GET an appointment with one) *SIGH*.  Life is so cruel, :c, but it's only because I see it that way...

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