Dead Before I Had A Chance To Live
Posted by ewsogross, 29 June 2014 · 256 views
depressed dead antisocial damaged scarred ugly accutane why mistake
I haven't been on Acne.org for a while now because i had the impression that my acne troubles were making a full remission. I was pretty damn wrong. For a while i was walking around all confident and what not, didn't really worry about my face because i didn't think anything was wrong with it. I would look in the mirror and not really be perfectly satisfied with how i looked but it was alot better than what it used to be. And then, i made the mistake of looking closely at my face in the light with a mirror. Horrible. So many little bumps and holes that look to be icepick scars and closed comedones. I think one of the worst mistakes i ever made was agree to get a microdermabrassion treatment and chemical peel directly after. I believe that is what destroyed my skin. when i look at my skin in the light at a backwards angle i can see what looks to be little shreds and holes covering my lower face and cheeks, which makes for an over all dreadful appearence. My derm knows she destroyed my skin but will sit there with a smile and tell me i look wonderful. I'm really worried my skin will never return to normal and it has a real fucked up look to it. sorry to be so pesamistic, but its hard to be happy when you know you are ugly and can't talk to people because all they probally see is my acne and scars due to the extreme vanity of todays society and culture. I was thinking of going on accutane to prevent any new scars from developing but I am worried it will do more harm than good. Any input would be greatly appreciated.