Aaaaaand Now I Want To Die.
Posted by JustAlexis, 17 September 2013 · 62 views
It really ticks me off when people make fun of me for wanting to die because of my acne. It's so easy for the clear- skinned - maybe - a - pimple- or -two people to say. They don't know the struggle. They don't know how much makeup I have to pile on just to look decent. They don't know how I had literally take down my mirror in my room because every time I looked in it I wanted to die because of the way I looked. That's how I feel right now. I put on skin makeup for the first time during the day today (read my previous entry to find out why). And I can't cover up this massive pimple on my chin. They always gather up on my chin. My chin is bone dry, all peeling and gross. I put on a ton of lotion and let it soak in. It's still peeling and nasty, but now with makeup on which kind of makes it look worse. And this zit is huge, really noticable.... ugh. Nobody knows how irritating this is unless they have it. So if you don't have acne, and you don't understand the struggle, then you keep your mouth shut when I say I want to die because of it. Because I do. Without any self confidence, is life worth living? I don't think so. I have other problems besides the acne, yes, but my lack of self confidence is what really brings me down. I don't know what to do anymore, and I've given up. But of course I'll keep you updated, if you'd like❤