What If I Never Took Accutane

I would do ANYTHING to have never taken accutane. At about 20 I feel like I've wrecked my life. My skins thin and fragile and wrinkling. My shoulders shot (tendinitis). My hair thinned bad. It's embarrassing. It destroyed the quality of my life. I don't know if I wanna wait to see wha lies ahead sometimes. I just constantly think of going back in time and having never taken it. Literally runs through my mind every single day...