My Acne Story
Posted by hiphopdancer, 28 July 2012 · 1,250 views
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Hi everyone so my name is Michael, I'm 15 years old from Canada and I suffer from nodular cystic acne. So for those of you who dont know what it is, nodular cystic acne is a severe form that happens deep within the skin (i think in the dermis), that is almost always painful and leaves acne marks! It's basically solid inflamed lesions on the skin that sometimes have white heads. I've personally been struggling with acne since grade 7, I'm only in grade 11 though but it's been a struggle both physically and emotionally. In elementary school i was teased for having acne although at that time it wasnt much, a blemish here and there, but as i got into highschool it got worse i would get them more frequently and more severly around my nose and chin. some days i would wake up and wish i could stay home cause i thought i was doing people a dis service for them to look at me, this was in grade 9. I actually thought that this was the worst of it... i was sadly mistaken. going into grade 10 my face was clear and i loved it, then somewhere along the way i started to get the acne again but not concentrated on my nose and chin like before. My whole face had it at least 7 on my cheeks and 5 on my forhead. it really took a toll on me emotionally when i would wake up look at myself and i couldnt even smile cause it hurt. Some days i would ask my mom to stay home cause i just felt terrible about my acne. All throughout my stuggle with acne i was made fun of and stared at. I didnt even want to go to the groceries anymore cause ONE time this child asked his mom what kind of disease i had. so half way through grade 10 i gave up and realized that acne is just something i have to deal with and became a self proclaimed pizza face. i was and am still very insecure about the way i looked. i mean i even tried covering it up with make up! ive tried many things for my acne and had it not work. ive done the stupid mistake of using 7 treatments at once in hope that it would cure me of this `disease` faster. ive cried because of it and have been extreamly depressed because of it also. Now im going into grade 11 with my skin almost clear, my head held high, and my self confidence boosted because of what has happened over the last 2 months and i want to tell you about how i was able to do something i only dreamed of a reality!