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Anxiety + Some Reflections
Posted by meowletsgoshop,
12 November 2011
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Skin Update:
So I think my skin might be better, on average today. While I still have probably 25 cysts, no new ones popped up today. Not fabulous, but I'll take it. I think I have a few new whiteheads, but honestly it's hard to even be sure. Could it be that bare minerals was the culprit after all? Maybe. It could also be that I haven't been eating much due to anxiety. For some reason, not consuming enough calories has helped my skin clear up in the past. Or it could just be random.
Some Reflections:
I've been pretty anxious today. I was going to go to the grocery store, but, in the process of putting make up on, I got so discouraged and grossed out by my face that I took it all of and decided to just stay in the comfortable quarters of my room. I've started taking Paxil subsequent to breaking out like crazy. It helps a bit, but I don't know if it's possible for me to be both conscious and not upset about my face. idk. I know I shouldn't isolate myself, but going out into the world makes me miserable.
I feel like in some ways having acne has made me a better person. Definitely less vain. I used to be pretty/attractive, and I knew it too. I think I'm nicer than I used to be. I used to love that I was pretty, that people were jealous of me, and so on. But now, I look back on that, and I'm embarrassed that I used to be so shallow.
I'm going to do some yoga, write my statement of purpose for graduate school, pretend that I don't feel well so I don't have to go to my friends birthday dinner, and try to cheer up a bit. Maybe I'll drink some wine before I go to bed. My skin is out of control anyways, and it is a Saturday after all.
So I think my skin might be better, on average today. While I still have probably 25 cysts, no new ones popped up today. Not fabulous, but I'll take it. I think I have a few new whiteheads, but honestly it's hard to even be sure. Could it be that bare minerals was the culprit after all? Maybe. It could also be that I haven't been eating much due to anxiety. For some reason, not consuming enough calories has helped my skin clear up in the past. Or it could just be random.
Some Reflections:
I've been pretty anxious today. I was going to go to the grocery store, but, in the process of putting make up on, I got so discouraged and grossed out by my face that I took it all of and decided to just stay in the comfortable quarters of my room. I've started taking Paxil subsequent to breaking out like crazy. It helps a bit, but I don't know if it's possible for me to be both conscious and not upset about my face. idk. I know I shouldn't isolate myself, but going out into the world makes me miserable.
I feel like in some ways having acne has made me a better person. Definitely less vain. I used to be pretty/attractive, and I knew it too. I think I'm nicer than I used to be. I used to love that I was pretty, that people were jealous of me, and so on. But now, I look back on that, and I'm embarrassed that I used to be so shallow.
I'm going to do some yoga, write my statement of purpose for graduate school, pretend that I don't feel well so I don't have to go to my friends birthday dinner, and try to cheer up a bit. Maybe I'll drink some wine before I go to bed. My skin is out of control anyways, and it is a Saturday after all.
Best of luck.