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So I am a 30 year old Black female who used to have PERFECT (really I was complimented all the time and asked what products I used) skin up until my 20's. For the past 10 years I have tried EVERYTHING. Differen, Retin-A cream, pratically every strength, Retin-A gel (which I'm currently on) BP, Clindamycin, glycolic and lactic peels...EVERYTHING!!! I just recently maybe for the past year have been slightly clear, with the exception of keloids/cysts that I have on both sides of my face which I get injected every 8-10 weeks. I switched birth control pills from Lo-estrin fe to Yasmin because I thought it was making me fat about 3 months ago and boom! Breakout city! Horrible. I'm guessing between the pill and the Retin-A I was staying pretty clear. The last time I went to the Derm he said wow you're not looking as well as I'm wanting you to look I think you should try Accutane. While it might seen simple to just switch back to the Lo-estrin fe I just can't seem to do it. I hated it, I was irritable, moody, fat and mean! My boyfriend said I was always in a bad mood. Even if I just went back on that particular pill I still wasn't as clear as I wanted to be so I said ok let's do it. He gave me the lovely yellow Ipledge book, sent me to the lab for blood and urine preg test,scheduled me an appt for the following week and sent me on my way. He didn't even inject me because he said oh the accutane will do wonders for the keloids. So here I go to my next appointment which they tell me don't wear makeup (what???). I couldn't even go in there without my makeup. I waited until I got into the dr's office and washed my makeup off in the room before she came in. Anywayz I'm waiting and I'm like yes finally I'm gonna get the answer to my prayers....WRONG! I was told I have to wait 30 days to get another preg test and then I can get my magic pills! I wanted to cry in that room! I was so pissed! Why didn't my doctor tell me this my last appt. I was convinced I was going to get a prescription that day! To make matters even worse, the next day at work when I'm already upset about my predicament, a coworker asks me hey what's up with your face, do you have acne? Uh duh u asshole yes I do and I would appreciate if you didn't point it out and talk about it so loudly in front of everyone! So long story short, I have my next appt Nov 8 and after is when I get to start! Hopefully Accutane will be the answer to my prayers. I'm tired of wearing makeup. Tired of trying to hide all these scars and bumps. My boyfriend tells me you're fine itz not that bad, you are so beautiful...easy for you to say your face is clear. I don't think he even uses anything to wash his face but water when he's in the shower, whereas I have millions of washes and scrubs,masks,toners,creams etc. He tells me you use to many things maybe that's the problem...what do you suggest I do? Just wash my face with water like you? He just will never understand. I wear my hair down ALL THE TIME to cover my face. I can't even remember the last time I pulled my hair back or up unless I'm at home. I just want to feel beautiful I want all these scars gone and I want to have a nice canvas for my makeup, not a bumby scarred up one! Counting the days till I finally get my medication. Hopefully the dryness will not be to bad. I'm already pretty dry because of the retin-a gel which seems to be actually working. I broke out really bad when I first started it which kind of surprised me because I was already on retin-a but the cream. Anywayz right now I have about 5 or 6 small pimples on my chin and near my hairline. Not really bad but the scarring is bad still from my last really bad breakout. I have also been using hydroquinone which my dr prescribed me. Right now I am washing with a hydrating bar soap (forgot the name) clydamicin, and putting clean and clear oil free moisuturizer, aveeno sunscreen and the hydroquinone in the day the same soap, retin a and hydraquinone at nite. My skin is so weird it tends to be quite dry yet oily at the same time is some spots. Just ready for the accutane. Anticipating my journey.
