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15 May 2007
All i keep thinking about is last friday night.

So I was out in our usual haunt - 1 of those spur of the moment decisions whereby I was persuaded to go out by friends at the last min so couldnt go home and change, touch up makeup etc. Know from experience that they're usually the best nights so went with it. Had a few drinks in the house. Got there early enough and pretty much danced the night away.
Was great except for this weirdo kept coming over to me and my mate - he honestly thought he could chat the two of us up. First I thought h was just a flirt but then ughhh. Anyway, guess you never do know (!) - my friend actually likd the guy! He was so sleazy and even with her showing a bit of interest he was still trying it on with me.. So she was with him briefly and then left him after exchanging numbers.

It was coming up to the end then, so wanted to leave in time to get a taxi. Were just standing there deciding what to do when I could hear these two guys behind me talking about us and which one they each liked - like hello i could hear every word lol. Anyway, was just thinkin to myself - great just what we need now (wow cold or what?!) when they came up to us. Was like we knew them well or something, within a few minutes we had paired off. Must have looked really easy - the way they just came over and straight away we were interested! These guys were intelligent, funny, quietly self-confident (NB not cocky...) and each of us really liked the looks of our lads. Usually I'll think a guy is good-looking but then when it gets to conversation time I'm really disappointed but not this time.
We talked for over an hour - stayed late at the club and went on to get chips (all 4 of us at that stage). Began to notice my mate looking annoyed but the rest of us were still kidding around. They kept trying to bring us home wih them in a really half-hearted way, they realisd very early on we weren't that type so we were getting a laugh outa that. Then suddenly a taxi came outa nowhere and my mate flagged it down and ran towards it. She shouts 'nice meeting ya' to them and I was like nooooooooo don't go but of course had to get into the taxi with her......






with no number sad.gif He doesnt have mine either.

My friend gave the other lad her number but he knew she was kinda annoyed with him (she thought he was being serious about us going back with them... lads are lads and if you met these you'd know they weren't the type either) and presumably doesnt think shes interested - which she is! and I so am!


She regretted it as soon as she got into the taxi and she realised that he was kidding. And me - I regret not taking two minutes to run back, give him my number and say goodbye properly. He looked so shocked and must have thought we were so rude and now I'll never see him again sad.gif

Friend heard from that creepy lad but nothing from her other one (ie my only connection to my lad sad.gif )

So have been thinking about this the last few days and have decided that that is not going to happen again - I'd rather suffer the embarassment of being the one to move things on than regretting it again. Plus theres so few people you really connect with so its worth taking that shot.



What about you guys? Any regrets? Lessons learnt?


30 Apr 2007
Which do you guys think is easier to deal with?

I would have said straight off before that the scarring has to be easier ie you learn to accept it cos its constant and you adapt your use of makeup...


But then I may be a little biased!! and possibly, just a tiny bit (!!) hoping to see some transformation when I get rid of it and that the scars won't matter that much.
I hate waking up not knowing what to expect when I look in the mirror.

However I have seen some posts where people say that the scarring is harder to deal with psychologically ie. permanent (or long-lasting) marks with not a lot you can do for them yourself. This I can kinda understand as well cos I use my skin routine as a way of coping - dealing with everything separately until I think I've done everything I can each night to help it.

Really rambling here guys but to sum it up which is better active acne with the hope of clear skin to come or a constant but not great appearance after?
21 Apr 2007
Hi!
I'm in a great mood tonight! I finally worked up the courage to leave the house w/o makep and felt ok - in fact I felt really free by the time I came back. Granted I just went down to the park with my dogs and didn't meet people I knew but still this is coming from a girl who never (EVER) leaves her room w/o foundation. The last time I remember being out in public with no makeup was when I was in hospital in January and even though I felt like s*** at the time I still felt naked w/o it.

No foundation and no concealer!! eusa_dance.gif

I'm going to try wean myself off this dependence on makeup

PS don't get me wrong - I love makeup and would still wear it every day as a confidence boost in the morning but I would love if it wasn't the end of the world if I was caught w/o it
16 Apr 2007
Hi!
Have decided to give myself a deadline of august to make a real difference to my skin. Am going away for two weeks at the end of august and makeup just isnt an option. My aim is to get rid of all active acne and have reasonably smooth skin. I have realistic expectations - chances of having skin like kate moss at the end of this experiment are probably rather slim but I do think four months is a long enough time to see some positive changes. Any suggestions are welcome and anyone that has their own deadline post and we can do it together. (PS when I say deadline I don't meen that I'm going to throw myself off a bridge if this doesn't work out, I just want something to work towards and convince myself to stick more rigidly with diet, cleansing regime, supplements etc)

Quick background:
21 with acne for ten years: severe during teens so was on BC, antibiotics, topicals. Eventually went on accutane aged 19 but could never go on the full dose because of problems with high blood cholesterol and lipids - still cleared me for a year and since then my acne has been returning, hopefully not to its full strength. Have currently moderate acne: 2 active spots per day with redness and uneven skin tone on face.
I also have a recovering cyst and can feel three cysts coming up on my left cheek (sounds severe but I have felt them for the past year and am hopeful that these are the last of my cysts - would rather see them come to the surface and get it over with, at the moment you cant see them) but I can see these lasting till the end of the year at this rate. Also have a cyst on chest and a couple of spots on my back at any one time. I do not expect any progress with these cysts but would love to prevent any more and think I could cope with them when they eventually rise to the surface if the rest of my skin was in somewhat good shape


Currently using jojoba oil, sudocream,cetaphil cleanser multivits, evening primrose oil, BP spot treatment with TTO for the last couple of weeks (mostly on advice from this site!)

Any suggestions: supplements, diet, cleansing.... will try anything on somewhat limited budget


What a boring post, sorry! Hopefully the replies will make this a little more interesting... eusa_dance.gif
7 Apr 2007
Hi guys,
I'm new here and addicted already!! I used to have severe acne during my teens but is mostly moderate now with an odd cyst. I have red marks and imperfections and a few active spots at any 1 time that can be almost completely hidden with a combination of makeup and the wonders of kind artificial light in clubs and bars. When I'm out I'm happy and somewhat confidant. I'll talk to every1, dance, flirt... at closing time I'll swap numbers but when it comes to the next morning and I see my skin in natural light I freak and theres no way I'll ever txt or reply to them as I wouldnt have the confidence for them to see me in daylight even with makeup on. At night I'll accept compliments etc but during the day I just take it that people are trying to make me feel better and find it hard to look ppl in the eye esp during breakouts. My friends have no idea, they see me as the skinny party girl dancin like no1s watchin eusa_dance.gif
Except the fact that I love the sun I would almost prefer to live in a world of controlled lighting, how sad is that?!
Any of you guys ever feel like this?

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