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23 Mar 2007
Hello guys. Just feeling a bit down because I'm so confused. This whole post is about a girl, lets call her "BB." And well, let me explain, then you can tell me what you make of it...
Before I start keep in mind me and her are both 15.... So, there is a really cute girl at my school (BB) ... And I mean, this girl is amazing. Heads turn when she walks past (and she usually has a smile a her face, she's one of those cheerful girls ) and I always noticed her, but only got a chance to talk to her this year. Well, I've got this huge crush on her, but I don't know if she feels the same way. Apparently, (this is coming from a friend of mine, who keeps telling me that she likes me, but has no idea I like her) when I was off sick, she was loud and silly, which is funny that, while she is quite silly and giggly when I'm around, she is sometimes quiet. She seems to go quiet a lot when I'm around.... And she makes a point of being mean (not horrible, but jokey mean) like only today, she could have blamed anyone for throwing a rubber on her (it was my friend next to me And also, she has this habit of teasing me. Not actual hateful teasing. But little comments she says to me with a smile on her face, making it clear that she's joking. And while this doesnt upset me (I just tease her back) it leaves me wondering, does she feel the same way about me as I do about her? A lot of my friends think she has some feelings for me (they don't realise its me who has the feelings!) and tell me I should go for it, because I'm never gonna find a girl like her often (which I have to say is true). And well, here's where the acne comes in. I've suffered from moderate acne for about 5 years now, and lately its been eating at my self confidence. Before, no matter how bad I looked, I always managed to hold my head high. But for the last few months, I'm losing all confidence. I feel so ugly with these ugly red bumps on my cheeks (which is where 90% of my acne is). For the last 2 weeks I stumbled across the wonderous Tea Tree Oil (that stuff is amazing, in only 2 weeks im nearing halfway clear!) and the redness began to subside. And thats where I am now. Now, I've told like 3 other girls (when they asked me why I haven't told "BB" how I feel) and they all say Im a handsome guy, and the recent clearing of acne has only helped, but I just can't believe it. Acne messed my confidence up so much that, even with half decent skin, I still have a very low opinion of my appearence. So, 2 questions for all you geniuses out there: 1) Do you think she does like me and how can I find out without asking her/her friends? 2) What should I do about my confidence? I just feel ugly.... Well, thats about it, tell me what you guys think. Sorry if any of you find this thread stupid, but I needed to get it all of my chest.... Many thanks, PwNeD |
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Ahhh that, well, I choked a bit dude. Funny you should ask though, because I was JUST thinkin gabout how tired I was of fearing rejection. I'm planning on doing something tomorrow... 24 Apr 2007 - 11:48 Last Visitors
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