My cystic acne

Ok guys, I have been battling cystic acne on and off (off because of birth control) since I was 17. Birth control is the only thing that has ever kept me crystal clear. So I have been breaking out in clusters of small sometimes big cystic pimples. So on april 1st I get this nasty itchy tingly feeling which I know was a zit forming. Anyway my derm put this thing on it that felt like a little tingle. It was supposed to kill the bacteria and shrink it. However, it NEVER shrank unless I poked it. IT'S STILL THERE! What happens is that it keeps scabbing over and falling off only to find there is still a ball underneath. It is not big at all actually. I can't think of anything to compare it to. Anyways, WHAT SHOULD I DO? Nothing and I mean nothing is making it go away. I don't want to keep poking at it to avoid scarring! So saaaaaaaaad! I hate acne. Any advice is appreciated. Thanks!

Acne keeps forming... please help!

Ok, so I am going on my 6th week of the regimen. It seems that I breakout out like crazy like 4-6 a week. They are red bumpy and painful. Its mild cystic acne. I clear up and then another breakout. I have lots of brown marks on my cheeks. This is now my problem area. It started on the cheeks like 1or2 a week. Then moved badly to the forehead. Since being on the regimen my forehead is 100% clear. But my forehead WILL NOT stop breaking out and its really upsetting to me. My regimen is still the same:
Wash with purpose soap in AM
Wait 10 minutes and apply 5% bp
Wait 10 minutes and apply moisturizer cetaphyl...not all the time though cuz I think its been breaking me out more. I don't wear make up anymore and I take zinc supplements which I think help a little. I follow the same steps at night as far as washing and applying. Is the regimen NOT sounding like it working? I mean shit I am frustrated here. I feel them tingle and I try not to pop but my son will headbutt me(playing around with me, lol) and I will feel the bruise and run to pop it. Seriously I am getting 4 a week and its so UGLY. I try to be positive but then you have nosey bitches at work aslking "hey???" As they point to spots on their own cheeks asking me what's wrong with mine?? Annoying... I will not give up but can anyone pleeeease give me advice? Is this normal? Why am I still breaking out so badly? Sorry for venting and thanks for listening

SHOULD I GIVE UP!!!!

Okay I know it has only been 12 days since on the regimen, but my freaking face is waking up to new pimples every single day. I mean they are going away much faster but DAMN!!!! I HATE THIS SHIT ON MY FACE! Please someone give me some advice and re-assurance. I am so sad, but I am still sticking with the regimen. So far I have about 8 active zits. I HAD to pop 3 that just surfaced this morning. My left cheek was totally clear for weeks and now I have this gross area on my cheek with 4 new breakouts. I AM SICK OF IT.... Ok, needed to vent. Now for the calm part, can any females reccomend a good makeup. I use bare minerals over the BP and it tends to look like I have make up on in some spots and not on others. EMBARASSING!!!! Thanks guys for everything

My First Day

Hi guys, well it's been a really long journey for me. I got pregnant in 2007 (april) and prior to that never had acne. I had SEVERE CYSTIC ACNE from the 5 month point on until the end of my pregnancy. To make a long story short, I know my skin was only flawless all the years before because of the birth control. Being pregnant and suffering with all that brought me back to this site that I ran in to a bit prior to 2007. Well my skin was pretty much clear as of 05/08 with some slight hypertrophic scarring and hypopigmentation (it's slowly fading ) All of the sudden I just started breaking out again in august. Nothing close to my pregnancy acne, but fuck (excuse my french) I AM SICK OF THIS SHIT! I am embarassed to look people in the eye, I hate looking in mirrors and I do my makeup/hair in the dark. So last night I said screw it and went ahead and tried it. So tonight is my 2nd night on this and I am just hoping to GOD this clears up. I have about 8 active (but scabby)zits on my face. This morning my inflamed zits still tingled a little but they were all scabby. I don't care, I just want them to dry up and fall off. So I just wanted to write on here with hopes of coming back to only give progress. This site was my help during pregnancy and again now. This is what I am using
*Purpose sensitive skin wash
*Kaiser Permanente 5% BP
*Cetaphyl moisturizer (non comedogenic)
This was all I could get my hands on out of being so desperate. I also take doxycycline 100mg bid
If anyone could give me any input I would appreciate it. WISH ME LUCK cause I NEED IT! Tired of being depressed....

I hope this is not a dumb question

So in the last month I have NOT touched my skin at all....I have had nasty huge whiteheads that I leave alone. I never pop them so I don't know what happens to them actually. Anyway, I felt a painful one today and had the urge to see what my face looked like up close (since I don't look in mirrors AT ALL) and I popped one active zit. I then noticed that I have these little blackish brown tiny holes that I knew were blackheads, so I poked like 5 of them and each one pushed out this brownish/yellowish hard waxy substance..
So my question is if you leave alone the huge active whiteheads, does the infection shrink back in to that hard waxy substance and become that blackhead? I am curious. I'd rather have those then the nasty zits and scars. THNAKS GUYS!!!!