Worst 2 weeks of my life

My life has been utter shit these past 2 weeks.My cousin died with a Drug OD.I was close to him at a younger age but he started hanging out with the wrong crowd and we went our seperate ways.Ok his death was *his* fault but he was only 18 at the end of the day .A week later i find out my grandad has malignant cancer,he wont make it past 5 months.I have never been on a such a downer and contemplating suicide as i have right now.I feel completely fucking useless.I went to visit him and didnt have a clue what to say i just made stupid small talk as if nothing was wrong.Anyway sorry had to get that out,im done now.

Blah life is really crap

Got bills to pay,im bored,i have no gf,no real friends.Life is just dragging me down slowly and painfully I was at college and heard 2 girls say something about me today,i didnt know *what* they said so i left it.4 hours later at lunch i plucked up the courage to say hi etc to to them.I thought it was all going well until i was walking away and heard them laugh and say something about my skin and how ugly i was That took alot for me to walk up to them and i get it flung back in my face as usual.Life 1 Jaffa 0

Whats the worst thing...

You have done to try and rid yourself of Acne? I can remember once when i was 16 i didnt go to school because i had a big bad flare up.I got so depressed about it that night i took one of those metal scrubbing things for your dishes and scrubbed my face really hard *thinking it may somehow help* i was off school for 6 weeks because my first layer of skin had been taken off.It was a mess,lots of blood etc at the time i was so down i didnt even feel the pain, i just wanted it to go away so badly that i didnt care.

Anyone else done something really stupid to try and rid yourself of acne?

If you were to die.

Do you think anyone would *really* be upset? I mean yeah ok family may be upset for a while,But that would pass.Do you think there is anyone in your life that value and care enough about if you died tomorrow? I can honestly say no,i dont have a Girlfriend,i have never been in a serious relationship,i have friends but i wouldnt say any of them are close friends.Anyone else the same?

Pfffft Random Rant

Anyone else reeeealy bored with this forum,some people,the chatroom,life in general? I am.

Rant Finished.