how do you cope with hate?

im at my wits end, i cant stand being me anymore, i hate every thing about me, im angry at everyone else and at god for making me the way i am, i hate everyday being a struggle, i hate feeling like the ugliest person in the room, i hate the way people judge me and i hate the fact everyone around me is so shallow n the people that supposedly care about me insult me and degrade me and humiliate me

ive faced up to the facts

ive got disqusting skin, and it seems like not matter how hard i try to make it better, acne and oily skin are never going to go away. even if it does every go ive got a wonky nose and big chin, i hate all of my facial features, i hate the way people take the piss out of me because of them, i hate that i let their comments get to me, but then i hate the fact that what their saying is true.

there is not one thing that i think looks nice or is attractive about me. but then i wouldnt care if i felt personality for people is enough. i would say personality because im a nice and fun person to be around but thats not enough. people are always going to be shallow, and it doesnt matter how amazing someone is it just seems like i can get nowhere without looks. no matter how hard i try with people it seems im always getting slapped in the face.

im so frustrated and just desperate, ive looked at plastic surgery but im not old enough, ive tried loads of things to get rid of all the billion problems on my face, but nothing has worked and i still have it all

i just feel like acne is a never ending cycle of frustration and pain, and ive just lost hope in ever getting rid of it

i know that there must be so many people here that feel like me.

i just want to know, how do you cope with all the hate? and the frustration? and how do you cheer yourself up?


i honestly want to know with how you guys cope when you feel like your at your lowest, and when people who are supposed to be friends n family make you feel like crap.

cause honestly i have tried everything to think positively about my situation, but nothing has worked, cause there ent nothing to feel positive about right now.

any responses are greatly appreciated

lonely

right before i even start this post .. i dont want anyone to judge me because of my age or my views on certain things (that has happened in many instances and it is becoming tiresome)

this is the only place i feel i am not being judged so i am just going to put my heart on this post ..

i feel extremely lonely ... and its not about friends or family ... i have an extremely loving family and have a few close friends who are always there for me in my time of need ... no ... i am very blessed in those areas.

but as soon as i see a couple i feel like i could burst out crying. its getting ridiculous to the point of any flirting between any female and male and i instantly feel ugly and inferior to them, and instantly start to feel like i am the only person left on the planet. i feel so lonely it hurts. i see people flirting, couples kissing and so forth and i just cant stand it. I just want the ground to swallow me up. i know that obviously relationships are not the perfect picture i see around me, and behind closed doors everyone has there issues, but i just want someone of my own to accept the way i look, and at the least be slightly attracted to me. I know this will sound shallow, but for once i want to feel like the attractive one out of a group, and feel the i am the object of attraction, not the one that everyone is looking at and saying "eww". I feel hopeless. I have in the past got a few looks from guys, but that has been when my acne has cleared and when i am wearing a ton of slap. It seems to me that most of the guys i meet are shallow, whether that be because of the age or just because their personality is so shite. Obviously i know that not all guys are shallow, but the ones i meet seem to be that way. And because of this, i am actually starting to become afraid of the idea of someone being attracted to me, or someone wanting to have a relationship with me, as i feel that they would only want to start that relationship out of sympathy. My confidence and self esteem is at an all time low, and i feel so isolated. I feel like i am doomed to be lonely and unloved forever (which sounds pretty dramatic hehe) but it is just the way i am feeling. It may sound concieted (which i am definitely not) but i feel like i have a good personality, and i just feel that because of the way i look nobody wants to know. i feel so ugly and alone and i just dont know what to do.

im sorry this is so long, but i just need to get it out. Please dont write patronising comments saying "your only 16 blah blah" because i am very aware of the fact that i am 16, but that does not mean that i cannot feel lonely without some affection from the opposite sex.

im dreading going back to school

i start back at school tomorrow ..

im dreading it, as soon as im back at school all these old emotions and feelings arise and i end up feeling depressed and suicidal. i always feel so ugly and disgusting in school, and i hate looking in the toilet mirrors as i just see myself as this gross ogre with disgusting red, spotty, oily skin. Whats worse is ive just started dans BP regimen and ive come out in horrible red rashes all over my face and i know that someone is going to point it out and make me feel like complete shit. i cant face going back to immature little boys who take the piss out of me, and girls who complain about one tiny spot on there face even though there skin is flawless. I always get insulted at school, and i always come home feeling like the ugliest person alive. Its not just that, i just hate the whole way school systemises. Its all about being popular and beautiful, which to me is absolutely ridiculous and extremely shallow. I couldnt give a rats ass about being popular, and i think its a bunch of bullshit. But everyone else seems to care, and if your not beautiful then your fucked as far as there concerned. All these boys seem to find orange, thong hanging out of there ass girls attractive, and i just dont understand it. Im the ugly one at school. Im not even ugly, and outside of school i do get a few guys looking (when i have a mask of makeup on ofcourse hehe) which makes me feel better, and being outside of school i feel ok. But inside of school, i just feel defeated, and i feel like im constantly trying to make myself pretty (slapping makeup on, doing hair, blotting skin etc) with no prevail. Im just tired of feeling fake, and im tired of trying to impress other people. Im so fed up of feeling ugly in school, and i cant understand why i do feel ugly.

does anyone else feel like this? i really want to know if its just me, or if there are other people who feel this way.

wow, sorry this is a really long rant, so sorry for it being so long, and respect to you if you read it. I just need to get this off my chest.

spiro? does it really do good for oily skin?

ok i have extreme oily skin ... im 16 and literally half an hour after washing my skin it will be oily .. like crazy oily!

i have done absolutely everything to try and make it better ... diet .. drinking water ... every medication ... over the counter crap ... changing washing ritual ... not washing atall ...

EVERYTHING!


and i just found out about spiro ... its sposed to control oil on the skin ....

i was wondering ... has anybody taken it?

whats the side effects?
how old do you have to be to take it? can you take it in teen years?
does it work?

please please please answer ... ive looked all over the internet and i cant find answers

aaahhhh! in the review section someone mentioned that this if taken long term causes overian cancer? is that true??

thanks x

derma doctor teaze zone oil control gel

ok ..... ive got really oily skin .. i mean .. one hour or even less sometimes after ive washed my face and applied my makeup my skin will be really shiny and oily and disgusting ...

ive just ordered online dermadoctor teaze zone oil control .... and its had some good reviews so im optimistic .. not putting all my hopes into it cause ive tried other products that have failed to control the oil soo ...

but im wondering if anybody has tried this product and can give me an honest opinion on it ..

thanks if you can