Trying to get clear!

Hi, I am 42 and I have had acne since I was 11 in the 5th grade. I didn't know what the bumps were at first. Nobody else knew either. In the 6th grade I found out it was called acne. It got progressively worse through jr and sr high. I went to a dermatologist and he was old and said it will go away in a few years and put me on tetracycline and benzoil peroxide. It did nothing but make me nautious and think derms were dumb and couldn't fix me. I had so much acne that I thought if it all combined I would have a giant whitehead on top of my head and have to wear a metal shield so it wouldn't bust (saturday night live). I tried all the creams and cleansers I could afford. Then I saw an infomercial on Proactiv. I was excited. I bought the stuff and it never totally cleared me, but It made it tolerable. I was in my 20's and wondered when it was going away? I got a good job with insurance and tried derms again. I hit 30 and they put me on accutane. By that time I had been attacked by these very painful cysts called boils. Oh my god they were the worst things I could get. They stopped me from sitting or moving, having a life. I had one bust on me (didn't know it)and people thought I was bleeding to death at work cause one I had in my armpit ruptured and soaked my shirt on that side in blood. Went to the nurse and she saw 3 big centers come out of this huge hole that had opened up. She put bactracin and a ton of gauze on it to stop the bleeding. I currently dont have to shave there since it ruined the entire area and left a big dimple indent. Accutane stopped everything! I thought I was in heaven! People constantly came up to me to compliment me on my skin and ask what I did. Accutane was a miracle. I took 2 cycles of it. My skin was good for about 4 years then I got pregnant and my skin took a dump. I am now 42 and look worse than a teenager. My own teen kids have alot better skin than me. (thank god). I have never been married and don't know what its like to have regular skin. The weird thing is my back and chest is great. Only my face and groin have issues. I think I am allergic to my own body hair since when I get rid of the hairs my skin clears pretty good. My face has these very fine blonde like hairs on it and when their gone my skin is good. I am so glad I found this site. I thought I was the only one with acne this bad at my age. I thought I should be worrying about wrinkles instead. But no wrinkles just acne and dents and scars and discoloration. I am now trying the 500mg niacin pills and Likas papaya soap. Just started this past weekend. I can say I have 2 cysts pop up but they never formed full blown. And now 1 is gone and the other is going down. I am still getting little whiteheads though which is an improvement since they're (little). No blackheads. So that's my story and I wouldn't wish this on anyone. People are very cruel and inconsiderate but I know how to handle them.